argh

i once told ching, if i can survive the end of this month, i can survive the rest of the year.

it just happens that this month's been crazy so far. first, i chopped my hand again [not that i foresaw it, but the previous sunday, my left eye lid twitched non-stop for the whole afternoon]. nus h3 ending so late that i returned home at 9pm on mon and wed. spent every single moment last week searching for an IS topic, in vain. SAT is this sat.

the J1s came. it's nice. and today i taught them jibenquan. quite fun. twins are still in wushu. ccp is annoying. but perhaps, she's not to be blamed. i can't move my thumb properly and without hurting. J1 orientation/induction is next tues. oh right, there's mock chem spa tmr...

gah, need to prac sat...

again

i can't believe it, i cut myself again [9 jan 07]. v-shaped valley with white flesh as valley walls, sunk into the skin, and blood refilling the valley again and again, and each stitch was unbearably painful. harrowing. traumatic.

am glad that this time, she witnessed the worst of it. i'm safe.

i need my grandfather. i can't stand her anymore. her contempt will kill me.

ki is is after my life. that dream i had of my 'mom' fighting with me for something dear to me and i have a duty of keeping and her attacks were lethal. i just had to run and run and run away from it, till complete exhaustion.

i need an is topic.

nus h3 has been fun, sorta gives me a peep at uni life, i like it =)

rjws has attracted quite a number of enthu j1s. happy.

am falling behind for maths, physics and chem tutorial. SAT is next sat. IS is due tmr, proposal, book review, argument tree [not twig].

got a cold from alrs. tired. hurt too.

1st step

1st day of school. got up on time. had some breakfast. met hj on the way. saw (almost) everyone else at the parade square and felt glad, a little at least. many gift exchanges. twinnies, weilin, mw, hj. new timetable, new aircon, new chem teacher. mr koh had a new grand plan for our class too! photocopied timetable, submitted entry form. lunch. watched ihc opening ceremony, met wr. rjws comm meeting was fun. quirky jokes from jy, yc warmth, lx heh, tm great. got jobs delegated, felt slightly less stressed. bought stationary, got home. played utopia. fell asleep before while starting to do research paper for super-sorrowful-enrichment-festival. continued trying to work on it after dinner. feeling a bit sore. now it's early morn. i'll finish the theory parts before i turn in.

in need of reading compre tuition. writing too. not to mention ki, h3 maths and physics, and chem, and...

new blog btw. specially set up for ramblings. no time for others.