again

i can't believe it, i cut myself again [9 jan 07]. v-shaped valley with white flesh as valley walls, sunk into the skin, and blood refilling the valley again and again, and each stitch was unbearably painful. harrowing. traumatic.

am glad that this time, she witnessed the worst of it. i'm safe.

i need my grandfather. i can't stand her anymore. her contempt will kill me.

ki is is after my life. that dream i had of my 'mom' fighting with me for something dear to me and i have a duty of keeping and her attacks were lethal. i just had to run and run and run away from it, till complete exhaustion.

i need an is topic.

nus h3 has been fun, sorta gives me a peep at uni life, i like it =)

rjws has attracted quite a number of enthu j1s. happy.

am falling behind for maths, physics and chem tutorial. SAT is next sat. IS is due tmr, proposal, book review, argument tree [not twig].

got a cold from alrs. tired. hurt too.