rjws! 17 April '07 =)

Team 1st Runner-Up in A Div!

Yay! from last year's 16 points (which was already an improvement from the previous year) to this year's 41 points!!! we rock we rock we rock =D from last year's 1 silver, 2 bronze and 1 fourth, to this year's 4 silver, 5 bronze and 2 fourths ^^

Jiti today was quite ok too. One silver and one bronze. Ouyangyang said it was good that we didn't deprove, haha ^^ yup, him, yuyuan and justin came back. we also had match support and the school flag this time! whee~

at the end of it all, we sang the school song, i held the school flag and the shiny silver plaque, we cheered unite and spirit, and we took group photos and lots of random photos! then we went to pig out at swensen's and took even more photos haha =D and i passed my 5 medals to wenda for his, laoshi's and xiaoqing's signature, whee~

ahhhh, we did it we did it!

what a friday the 13th

bronze. 8.11, tied in second place. the most exciting part, the one i could always do perfectly and beautifully, i blundered. T_T then again, i must admit, i did enjoy performing, and feeling my ego boosted as people cheered and clapped for me. and i saw through the video how laoshi and liuchang were clapping for me ^^ overall, i did ok. just very much of a yi2 han4. sigh

some of the others were worse. lixuan forgot many parts of her spear, longkuan forgot a whole chunk of it, tamie, sigh... and the exco meeting to discuss elections stuff was a fiasco too.

i just wanna sleep now. and i'd need to start practising for LA. oh, i got an "A" for pw =)

my nandao

8.21pts! and a silver medal ^___^

i can't believe (or rather, accept) that it's all over now. all the sweat, and blood, and the eleven stitches. the late night trainings, the performances, the faith from the various coaches, and the one minute plus on the arena... i haven't told anyone, but i really felt like crying after completing the routine, flawlessly and proudly. over.

it's been like a friend who has stood by me over the past year, watching me and my life in wushu. it is leaving me. and i simply cannot bear to part with it. it feels as if it should always be a part of me. but its departure is inevitable, just like everything else in this world. i thank it for the lessons, glory, experience, happiness and love it has shown and given me.

i love my nandao. =)

silver!

yay, i got a silver for nanquan today! (9 april '07) was angsting so much about da ting over the weekend, did about 50-60 of them using the soft mats until couldn't do anymore, and did 20+ at home yesterday. in the end, i managed to do it, but a bit wobbly. but still, I DID IT!! and no more of it for the rest of my life, mwahahaha~

remember learning this particular taolu from ouyang yang's video last year, to teach longkuan how to do it during open house. then lao shi decided to teach it to me (during the year end lessons under the GO), then xiaoqing came and helped me make it look nice since the beginning of this year, then i performed it for take.5, then at cat high, and then... today!

perhaps i could have done it faster and looked better, but i think it was still a good job, considering i've only learnt it for less than half a year =) jia'en did very well too, she didn't make a single blunder, something which i've never achieved so far. she almosssst got fourth, a placing ^^

and mom was happy for me too! so we sort of celebrated, with beer and all hee~

JIAYOU!!

i haven't blogged for so long... well. it's the o so familiar stress

it's not so familiar today and yesterday, for some reason. and i didn't do well for astaTS, tho i didn't expect becoz of the nature of my project itself. something i learn though, it is very important that i deliver my presentation calmly and confidently, with thorough clarity. yup, at least i learnt something =)

went back to visit rgco today. they were superb compared to my syf year! there was only a small problem with suona, but the rest were all very well prepared. diyingbu was especially good, it was entrancing just to listen to them and watch them sway, ahh... not to mention daji was great. they are so much steadier than we were last time. the confidence they have in themselves, admirable =)

well, i put on braces on the first day of holiday and could only eat porridge for almost a week. holidays started and ended. with trainings at temasek, cat hight, in school, at laoshi's place... CTs came and went. and i did them badly... just got back chem today and i got a "C", sigh... at least my H3 maths was ok, within the first 25%.

met tianzhi at my house that day. well, he struck me as a really matured young man, in the sense that to him, school is just school, and life consists of so much more.

wushu competition is coming up very soon... less than ten days >.<" *help* i don't know what else to say, or pray... i will do it i will do it. just tell yourself, you will do it

now, i better start studying for h3 physics test. jiayou jiayou JIAYOU!!

yay

yay, i got silver for ssef!! ahhhhh it's been such a long journey since i first started nrp. still rmb how hard it was to choose a project and finally deciding on the one i did. somehow, though, i just feel that i would have liked a gold, hee. i did spend two sleepless nights, on the poster and logbook... but oh well, all's well, and i'm glad it has finally ended and ended well.

life's been very stressful. not to mention the woman adding to it. come to think of it, she's such a piece of shit and has no life (shit can't get life) and think's that the only right thing to do in the world is to have no life. right. sigh, and that day i just cried after she rejected our request for the sat performance...sigh, at least yechuan was there... well, as of now, the woman downright hates me. and good luck to me tmr when i face both her and mr michael.

went to talk to mr ortega becoz of the woman. i'm hoping that he got our message. well well...

i'm glad i take linear algebra and i'm still hanging on for it. though i didn't do too well for the mid-term. sigh, must jiayou. the final exam is 5 days after wushu finals. jia you jia you.

can't rmb how many days i pon school already. i'm trying to write some excuse letters now so that i have something to pass to him tmr, last day of term.

and 3 best achievements. i still can't think of the third one. and mr koh wants it tmr. =(

sigh... too tired, cannot remember what else happened. well, i did some chem tutorials and a math tutorial over cny weekend. haha, so in response to the previous article, it was still a productive cny ^^

life...

today's the eve of chinese new year... shld blog.

life's been ok i guess. i suck. need to focus more on work. sat is 2030. well. embarrassing. almost failed the physics test. H3s are dying... the piece of shit of a woman should go to hell.

week 10 will be unthinkable. physics spa skill A on mon. ssef on tues and wed. ki common test on friday. and there's also ydsp congress somewhere that week.

competition is coming too soon. nquan, ndao, and gun are all quite screwed up. not to mention jiti and the pathetic state it's in.

performed yesterday. well. wateva.

so why this rotten? didn't sleep but read fanfic monday morning. didn't sleep but played with toothpicks on thurs morning. i suck, don't i.

yx came on thurs for training! so happy ^___^ hope she'll come more often...

suckiest cny

IS is over! OVER!

just a quick note to say, IS PROPOSAL IS OVER!!!! hahahahaha.. WAHAHAHAHA

this is what mr tan commented: "Status 1: go ahead Nice work!!!! I'm very proud of how far you've taken this! Now just some small adjustments."

i'm proud of myself too, after all that i've put in.

was in a state of real bliss for the past 2/3 days. rjws orientation was fun too. and today performed.

it's about time i start looking at my studies now. stuff like, you know, tutorials...

bliss(?)

somehow, i'm feeling rather blissful today. perhaps it's natural, in-built, for humans to forget misery and pain. it's quite a beautiful day really. =) school was easy. and played after i came home early. needs to start on IS though. but no stress... weird

it'sso difficult

the woman was actually furious at tm for not passing her the minutes on time... why so fussy!? and i was just so shocked i held the two spears and stared into space... yx saw everything i think and quickly came to tell me "what's her problem... what's her problem?!" and patted my shoulder when she saw me dazed and fuming inside... i asked her whether she was coming, she didn't give a definite reply... then i couldn't speak anymore coz i was on the verge of tears, and i just whispered "it'sso difficult".. the lift came and i left, yx didn't know what to do and we just waved gdbye... and i broke down inside the lift. couldn't stop my tears flowing until remus came up to me while i was wiping at my tears. later, red and pink costume lost. later mom not happy and gave me a lecture on how i shouldn't come home late from wushu. then later, she received news that yan has passed on... what a day.

glad xiaoxin supported me and encouraged me to jump-land... and the woman better not find out that we're training on sat or i would be dead. literally. my search for an IS topic has finally started to see an ending. i want wd to like me more. he's taking me for granted.

i hate the woman

argh

i once told ching, if i can survive the end of this month, i can survive the rest of the year.

it just happens that this month's been crazy so far. first, i chopped my hand again [not that i foresaw it, but the previous sunday, my left eye lid twitched non-stop for the whole afternoon]. nus h3 ending so late that i returned home at 9pm on mon and wed. spent every single moment last week searching for an IS topic, in vain. SAT is this sat.

the J1s came. it's nice. and today i taught them jibenquan. quite fun. twins are still in wushu. ccp is annoying. but perhaps, she's not to be blamed. i can't move my thumb properly and without hurting. J1 orientation/induction is next tues. oh right, there's mock chem spa tmr...

gah, need to prac sat...

again

i can't believe it, i cut myself again [9 jan 07]. v-shaped valley with white flesh as valley walls, sunk into the skin, and blood refilling the valley again and again, and each stitch was unbearably painful. harrowing. traumatic.

am glad that this time, she witnessed the worst of it. i'm safe.

i need my grandfather. i can't stand her anymore. her contempt will kill me.

ki is is after my life. that dream i had of my 'mom' fighting with me for something dear to me and i have a duty of keeping and her attacks were lethal. i just had to run and run and run away from it, till complete exhaustion.

i need an is topic.

nus h3 has been fun, sorta gives me a peep at uni life, i like it =)

rjws has attracted quite a number of enthu j1s. happy.

am falling behind for maths, physics and chem tutorial. SAT is next sat. IS is due tmr, proposal, book review, argument tree [not twig].

got a cold from alrs. tired. hurt too.

1st step

1st day of school. got up on time. had some breakfast. met hj on the way. saw (almost) everyone else at the parade square and felt glad, a little at least. many gift exchanges. twinnies, weilin, mw, hj. new timetable, new aircon, new chem teacher. mr koh had a new grand plan for our class too! photocopied timetable, submitted entry form. lunch. watched ihc opening ceremony, met wr. rjws comm meeting was fun. quirky jokes from jy, yc warmth, lx heh, tm great. got jobs delegated, felt slightly less stressed. bought stationary, got home. played utopia. fell asleep before while starting to do research paper for super-sorrowful-enrichment-festival. continued trying to work on it after dinner. feeling a bit sore. now it's early morn. i'll finish the theory parts before i turn in.

in need of reading compre tuition. writing too. not to mention ki, h3 maths and physics, and chem, and...

new blog btw. specially set up for ramblings. no time for others.